i always try my best
to smile at you
may it be sad
angry, happy
or even hurt
but you didn't realised
you don't even care about me
all you think was that
i was just someone who
can be taken advantage of
you didn't even know that
every word u said
every things you do
you hurted my heart
but what else can i do
except smiling at you
like nothing happened??
i'm so tired been an angel
i need to bear peoples burden
but theres nobody to help me
to carry all these burden
theres no one who are willing
to lend a helping hand towards me
i feel so helpless
i truely hope that theres
someone who is always there
for me when i need help
i can't be helping people
all the time!!
theres times which i need help too
but why can't people understand me?
why can't they help me just once??
why must they hurt me???
why must they do all these to me????
i truely don't know
now theres no one to care about me
and i had to care for everyone
i'm tired...
i need to take a rest...
i wonder if theres someone
who can take over my place
may it be one day or years
or perhaps forver
well, i truely hope theres
someone like this exist
so i may rest in peace
after so much things
its so tiring after all this
i can't even have a peaceful day
or even a peaceful sleep
these things is inside my mind
turning round and round everyday

and its getting worst day by day

i can't endure it any longer

i need help

i'm not as strong as everybody thinks

i'm human too

i got my own feelings

and i DO feel tired

i do feel hurt

but it seems like people

doesn't know that i got feelings

and they just treat me for granted

when they are alone

i'm a treasure to them

but when they have friends

i'm just a dirt infront of them

why is life so unfair?

must i be the only one

who is suffering from all this??